I sometimes wonder to myself about cause and effect. I wonder is my
vampirism caused by my other illnesses or sometimes I wonder if the other illnesses I
have (migraines, chronic anemia, sun sensitivity etc) are because of my
vampirism. I usually turn the thoughts regarding this issue around and around my
head for a few days before coming to the conclusion that they are seperate
things. They react to each other of course but its like having the flu when you
have a broken leg. It will make you feel worse but you didn't catch the flu
because you had a broken leg. >>
This is essentially, what I think on this matter, just worded better than it
was turning out in my head! I get cranky and tired and gloomy when I can't
feed, but other than that, I honestly cannot say "THIS nasty little physical
discomfort is because I'm vampire, THAT one is because I'm chunky and old." I
CAN, however, say "One of the reasons I don't much feel like exercising is
that I am not feeding. That puts me in a lousy mood and I get so that I don't
feel I can STAND going outside and dealing with the world, let alone trot
around the house waving my arms and grunting like an idiot."
It's a vicious little circle, I don't feed so I feel too crummy to go out
and live and meet people to maybe find a local donor. Bleah
Deb